Yesterday was really an unforgettable day in my life! Maybe I should mention it as 'one of the unforgettable days'..It was all like a dream or something imaginary or something really eating away my hopes and even my life away..
"After my UG, what is it that I must do?" This had been running on my mind ever since I was nearing my UG course completion. After all that God had told me about my life through various means, like through the word of God (Bible), prophecies, dreams etc..I had kept my mind focussed on 'Ministering to God'..and then at the right time, my Lord Jesus, spoke to me clearly that I doing MBA was His will for me.
MBA?? I had never given a thought about studying any further. These are the last days and I must probably start ministering to God as soon as possible!! This had been my idea about my life. But just as the Bible says that Our ways are not His ways and Our thoughts are not His thoughts, I gave up my idea and accepted the fact that my God is a wise God who better knows what I should do.
So I made my move towards writing TANCET telling God that I'd study MBA only if my make through the exam. To be frank and true, I never made a step towards studying for the exam except for the step I made to download a model question paper which I never even cared to go through completely!
And finally when the examination rose up, all I thought was," Is it necessary that I write this exam?" God didn't leave me. So just as I had thought,"Good if I fail"..I just went there for the sake that I paid the fee for the exam and that my mom took the matter so seriously than I did. And again to be frank, I did not answer even 40 questions. I din care either. I was proud that I wouldn't get a negative.
So this was my part!
Then the marks were put up! I got the rank list too! But truly saying..I was wonder-struck!
It wasn't that I got the first rank or something of that sort. Looking back at how I treated the exam, and how I had made a move towards the exam, God had really blessed me with a mark and rank 'Not So Bad'..
Okay..that was making me say "Awesome God!" Next I didn't know about the counselling application form and the submission date.
It was yesterday morning. I was checking about the other details when my eyes accidentally fell on this particular detail.
LAST DATE FOR SUBMISSION OF COUNSELLING FORM
IS 30.06.2011
That was it! I felt faint and like crying. I never knew about this and I ain't ready with anything. Today was the only day left for me!
So my dad and I left for the center to get the application form. we reached there by near afternoon. The college was built too interiorly and there was not much facilities available. The bank in that college wouldn't help people with no account there. So we had to rush out to check for a bank. After the draft process, it was nearly like 1:00pm.
I, by then, didn't know what to do about my final year mark sheet as no universities provided it. I didn't have my marks in my mail too.
For about half an hour I was struggling, about what could be done, with so many friends. When we got the application form, it was like another half an hour.
We reached home directly. All the time I was praying," Lord, if this is your will...let it be done." It was difficult for me to say that because by now I had got a mind to study for it was God's will for me to do so.
Since my enclosures were inside the locker and that the key to it was with my mom, my mom had to rush home in the middle of her job. Meanwhile I had made up my mind to attach only up to the pre-final year mark sheets.
My mom was really a blessing for me. She wasted no time but get the enclosures photo copied and get attested.
Back in home, I filled up the application form..checked if everything was okay..then my dad and I rushed to the bus stop to either get into the bus or an auto-rickshaw. To my hurry, there wasn't a single vehicle to take us.
Tears rolled down my eyes as I managed to control it. We had to buy six 1-rupee stamps instead of one 6- rupee stamp. In half an hour we had to rush to the post office and by then we got the enclosures attested.
Here was another great shock! I had misplaced one of my enclosures!!
My dad and mom went mad at me. I started bursting into tears as I prayed in my mind," Father God! You were the one who asked me to go for an MBA. You were the one who showed me today morning about this counselling. And now..after all the efforts I have taken with your precious grace, there are so many huddles on the way that I can bear no more. Father God! Let things happen according to your will!"
We rushed home and again after verifying if everything was right, my dad rushed out to post it. By then it was actually 7 pm. So he opted for a private professional courier.
Getting to know about its drawbacks, my dad rushed to the government post office but it was too late. Finally having been instructed he used yet another means and posted it. He then called me to inform and it was 9 pm when he called.
I thank the Lord Almighty for His abundant grace and help.!
Now I'm not in a position to believe that everything is going to be alright. No..I can't believe it so..My hopes are crushed. I'm hopeless! But still I have only one reason to keep my hopes about my counselling alive and that will be 'Jesus'..!
..For there is nothing.....nothing at all that Jesus can't perform! I believe in Him. Let His will be done. Amen!
